Wanting What You Don't Have

Lately, I have been wanting something that is not good for me. (This something in and of itself is wonderful but not right for me at this moment.) Something that would complicate my life so completely and would be so difficult for me to manage. But I want it and sometimes I feel like if I throw a big enough temper tantrum or be good enough, Heavenly Father will honor my request. But this desire has got me thinking why I spend so many hours of my life lusting (that's right, lusting) after something I don't have. And I flashed to the movie "Click". Wouldn't it be fantastic to fast forward to when I feel better and heal from this disease. Fast forward to when my husband will be in the US. Fast forward to when I have an actual job that pays me money and I am using my degree etc etc etc. You get the idea.
Thinking about this would be great for about 12 seconds. If I fast forwarded to being better, well I would miss this time to bond with my family and to rest and to think (Maybe I am doing too much thinking) and to be bored and be confined to bed and learn how strong I am. If I fast forwarded to my husband being here I would miss the opportunity to have that moment when I know this dream is coming true and the strength this struggle has given me and the patience I think I am suppose to be learning and what it truly takes for someone outside of the US to come and work and live in the US. If I fast forward to having a job then I miss the opportunity of learning what these last 400 hours of internship will teach me and the struggle to be a good therapist and the education my supervisor can give me and the fun of job interviews. All good lessons right?
So, my thought for today is to be thankful for what I have right now and know that I have a loving Heavenly Father who does indeed have a plan for me. I don't have to tackle all the trials of the world (fast forwarding would make me have to make a lot of decisions in a very short time), I just have to tackle today and today's challenges. So, I am going to try and stop wanting what don't have right now and live in the now.
PS If you see me next week complaining, remind me that I said this. I will probably forget.