time...Time...TIME...Argh it keeps ticking and at the very same time it is never moving fast enough. I finish my internship on August 14. The goal has been so hard to get to, and yet I worry I will never make it. I do go to work but it is definately more difficult to get out of bed and get there. And it is even more difficult when I see my bills piling up and yet no pay check. So while I am running as fast as I can to the finish line, I am so very scared about getting there and having to get a job, if I will get a job, and where that will be.
Sebastian and I have gone back and forth for awhile as to what comes next. I was told that the door really is closed on a job at Southwest Behavioral Health, and the pickin's are slim here in Utah. So where? Sebastian applied for a director of security job there in Winnipeg. It would be such a great opportunity for him but I am worried about my career. I know that sounds selfish and I need to think as a we, but I have gone to school for what seems like forever and will not really be able to do much therapy in Canada with a Masters degree. My work would be more case management. I love my husband and we need to finally live in the same country/city/home finally! So I feel conflicted. In April when the Winnipeg temple was announced, I had a feeling that I should be in Winnipeg. I told Sebastian I will give it a year, but I know it is almost career suicide to not work on licensing this first year. I will know more about all of this soon because I am going to Winnipeg the end of August to spend time with Sebastian, but I am going to try and interview for jobs. Really, I need a job for my sanity and my ability to feel good about my abilities, much less the bills and the goose egg in the bank account. I guess I could use some divine intervention. So time is my enemy, for now.
